december 28, 2017…

today, i am grateful for… 

…my dog buggs who is my best friend, co-pilot, constant companion, snuggle bug, and source of constant entertainment. he provides me with love, comfort, and protection twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. i am so grateful and happy to have him in my life… 

…new socks…all of my other socks had holes in them and i just kept on wearing them, because i was too busy to stop and buy new ones. these socks are nice and keep my feet warm… 

…a nice hot shower after being outside with the temperature being 18°. it helped to soothe all of my tires and aching muscles. the hot steam made me cough and cough helping me to get rid of a lot of the congestion… 

…a good talk with my co-co-pilot j**s last night. although we have never met, she understands me and listens to me. we are planning on meeting soon… 

…my new friend a****a. my friend l***a introduced us to one another, when i was visiting her in bartlesville. she is very positive and always has something good to say… 

my body may be infirm, but my heart, mind, and spirit are strong. i may be in a strange place in the middle of the country, but l***a is three and a half hours away from me. i may feel lonely and alone from time to time, but i am surrounded by wonderful and caring friends. 

i am capable. i am independent. i am open to possibilities. 

namaste. 

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december 25, 2017…

today, i am grateful for… 

…great friends who support and encourage me, and who love and accept me as i am…

…exciting adventures and explorations across the country… 

…my co-pilot and constant companion,  buggs and my co-co-pilot, j**s… 

…stories, memories, photos, and videos that i’ve been able to compile of our travels… 

…a place to stay and rest… 

…my car and the independence it gives me… 

…clean laundry… 

…food to eat… 

…my phone… 

…waking up to a good dream and being happy to get out of bed… 

i am not feeling my best right now, but my health has flourished over the last year. i am a little weary, but i am also antsy to begin another adventure. i am a little hesitant about where i am, but i am ready to be a true road warrior and make it my own for now. 

i am truly fierce and independent. i am full of curiosity and wonder. i am worthy of love and companionship. 

namaste. 

***this was from yesterday. i have the flu and fell asleep before publishing. tomorrow, i will be back and try to finish my gig harbor story and try to pick up the pace a little, as i am still on our second journey. in case anyone wonders, on our way back to nevada…after niagara falls, after the ocean that is lake erie, after columbus, after the gateway arch, and a three am harold and kumar-like white castle experience…we decided to get our kicks on route 66…and landed in oklahoma on thanksgiving day…spent some time with my friend l***a…and although no longer visiting l***a, we are still in oklahoma.***

september 14, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…sleep, when and how it comes. any rest for this exhausted, run down body is a good thing. i’ll take it however i can get it…

…the plumber coming out to fix p**l’s sink. it was beginning to get stinky. he has been without a functioning kitchen sink for about two weeks now and has been eating off of paper plates, using plastic utensils, and drinking out of the paper cups that i took from my hotel stays…

…having enough energy to: do the dishes that had been putrefying in the sink full of swamp water, take the trash out, and straighten up after p**l’s little girls were here…

…being physically able to take buggs out and go for a walk…

…a nice and welcome change in the weather. cooler temperatures 50° – 60° and some grey clouds and precipitation…

…for getting to talk to a wonderful advice/triage nurse. she advised me on exactly how to proceed…

…p**l’s friendly face and human companionship that i can talk to and relate with. i appreciate his hospitality and willingness to share. plus, he understands what it’s like to be: a black sheep, left behind, disowned, the butt of jokes, incredibly sensitive to others, and full of emotion…

…buggs, my sweet boy and co-pilot…

i am capable of whatever, i set my mind to doing. i am a very good listener. i am worthy of love.

namaste.

 

august 14, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…waking up at my new normal time 0400. getting a really good walk in with buggs. making sure that i got sixty minutes of cardio in, since i still haven’t been cleared to go back to my circuit workouts yet…

…three cups of black coffee enjoyed at my desk while i worked on finishing something important. i was nice and made sure to leave r*****d a cup, even though he didn’t even get up until after 1630…

…having such a nice new desktop to work on, while listening to music with my headphones, and sitting in my “new to me” chair that j***y passed on to me. it is so much more comfortable under my ass than the hard wood, kitchen table chair that i used to sit on. it hurt my bum and made both legs go completely numb, so this whole new set-up is awesome…

…finally pulling all of the pieces that i’ve been writing, deleting, and starting to write all over again…together in one place to make something that hopefully made sense, didn’t overwhelm, and wasn’t weird…but, while i’m glad that i’ve finished finally…i know that i probably could have made it more concise…

…peace and quiet, since r*****d slept for most of the day. it is always so nice for me to be able to hear myself think…to not have fox news blaring, or the phrase, “and death,” bellowed over and over again…

…my fantasy football drafts, to keep my mind off of heavier things. i have five teams and i am entirely ready to dominate my leagues…and yes, i am an absolute nerd…

…the silly text messages that just made me laugh…

my mind is quiet. my body is healing my heart is full.

namaste.

august 9, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…waking up at 0400. walking with buggs, watching the sunrise and photographing it…

…getting to enjoy two cups of black coffee before getting ready for my appointment…

…the nicest, coldest shower that i think that i’ve had this hot sweaty summer. i felt so much better afterwards, like a new person ready for my day…

…clean clothes that felt and smelt really good. i was glad to have something super comfortable to wear for my test. so comfortable in fact, that i may have worn said outfit as a “sleep costume” before…

…r*****d being kind enough to get up and take me to my test, as i needed a driver to drive me home after the test. i was really surprised and really thankful…

…r*****d treating me to a cold drink when i was finished…

…w***y making both r*****d sandwiches upon our arrival back to the apartment…

…w***y and j***y watching buggs while i was having my test…

…really super nice nurses…c****l and l**a…they were funny and kept me entertained. l**a installed my iv quickly and painlessly…

…some clarity and focus…

…for really good advice for reaching my goals and attaining my dreams. i’m grateful for my friend and her kindness. she has a beautiful, strong, and wise spirit…

…losing five more pounds…

i am becoming focused. i am appreciating my achievements. i will have what i want.

namaste.

 

oprah winfrey and deepak chopra’s 21-day meditation: desire and destiny (days nineteen and twenty)…

day nineteen – blissful me

centering thought: joy is my highest purpose.

sanskrit mantra: sat chit ananda.

translation: existence, consciousness, bliss.

message of the day: “joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.” – mother teresa

your day nineteen meditation can be found here

day twenty – visionary me

centering thought: the world is waiting for my vision.

sanskrit mantra: aham brahmasmi

translation: i am the universe.

message of the day: “alone we can do so little, together we can do so much.” – helen keller

your day twenty meditation can be found here

 

 

 

oprah winfrey and deepak chopra’s 21-day meditation experience: desire and destiny (day eighteen)…

day eighteen – creative me

centering thought: i play. i create. i succeed.

sanskrit mantra: om bhavam namah.

translation: i am absolute existence. i am a field of all possibilities.

message of the day: “if you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced.” ― vincent van gogh

your day eighteen meditation can be found here