june 24, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…being able to get up early and go on my pre-dawn walk with buggs. it was still warm, but not as hot as it is now. there was a beautiful sunrise, but i couldn’t take a photo…

…three cups of black coffee and some quiet time for myself and buggs outdoors, until everyone else woke up…

…time to really think about what i’m writing and how i should write it…how to cut it down and still have it be me. time to actually finish part of it…

…time to work on my street art and grafitti photobook. i’m on page twenty-three or eighty-five…

…being alone in my room with buggs. no r*****d. no yelling. no arguing. no fox news. getting to listen to my music and work…

…a new to me chair for my desk. j***y got a new one, so she gave me her old one. it feels so much better on my butt and back, than that hard wooden kitchen chair…

…ice tea with lemon…

i am resilient. i am capable of greatness. i am confident.

namaste.

june 18, 2017…

…today, i am grateful for, 

…waking up at five am and taking buggs for a long walk, before it got hotter than 85°…

…three cups of black coffee enjoyed on the patio at seven am and 92°…

…a delicious breakfast burrito created and served by w***y…

…the nice email that i received from my friend the other day. i appreciated hearing from her and am working on a response…

…a firm plan to work…

…five different types of solitaire to play, to keep my mind occupied and from focusing on upsetting things…

…buggs and his goofy, toothy grin that makes me chuckle everytime i see it…

…for all fathers…my own included…

…the dinner that w***y spent three hours creating for us…

…air conditioning, fans, wet towels, cold showers, spray bottles, ice, and water…

i am competent. i am confident. i am worthy of love.

namaste.

june 8, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…actually just getting up and walking when i couldn’t sleep last night. i burnt a lot of calories, wore myself out, and felt much better about myself afterwards. buggs was none too thrilled about getting up during his beauty rest, but i wanted to have him with me…

…two cups of black coffee enjoyed on the patio at four am, before it got too hot and before the gnats and awful nearly invisible stinging bugs came out…

…games and fantasy baseball to keep my mind busy and off of things that i have absolutely no control over…

…a nice cold shower to make me feel better before heading out to therapy…

…being able to borrow the crv today, to go where i needed to go and get what i needed to get done, done…

…being able to come to some decisions regarding my current course of therapy today…

…possible good news on the car purchase front. i’ll hopefully find out for sure tomorrow…

…a delicious dinner prepared by w***y…

…a quiet evening without r*****d around…

…air conditioning and fans. ice, cold showers, and wet towels…

…my chest pain finally going away, after several hours…

…a room of my own, clean laundry, the ability to bathe and the facilities in which to do so, being able to have buggs, having food to eat, good health, and improved strength…

i am healthy. i am strong. i am worthy of love.

namaste.

may 28, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…finishing the last of the things that i needed to finish with my package last night…

…a good night of sleep…

…a nice, long, predawn walk with buggs before things got too hot outside…

…the help that i received from richard…

…finally being able to walk into fedex, package in hand, and send the cards on their way…

…the photos that i received of my mom’s prized irises in full bloom…

…finally being able to get my storage problem solved…

…my dad seeing and realizing with his own eyes and ears how much a person can change in one year with the right goals, plan, and motivation in place. he said that he couldn’t believe his eyes when i walked quickly, steadily, ably, and agily to his car. he also never expected me to give him, what he’s never been able to give me…acceptance and to be told to follow his heart, and just be happy. he was excited by my plan to follow my heart and make my way back home, as well as pursuing my master’s degree. it was shocking and surprising to hear…

…all of the veterans and active duty military people, serving around the world. the veterans and active duty military people who are in my life: two of my uncles, my cousin t*m, my friend k*, and my friend j**s. all of these people personify bravery and courage. they stepped up, so that people like me, could live safely and freely…and most of all, because they are true patriots, who love their country…

i am curiosity personified. i am full of stories and childlike wonder. i am creative and possess an imagination like no other.

namaste.

may 24, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…a good night of sleep last night…

…a very early morning walk with buggs, before it got scorching hot…

…two cups of black coffee at the apartment, on the patio, and three cups at a restaurant this morning…

…breakfast at house of hash a-go-go. i had the homemade corned beef hash…

…time to try to catch up and finish the thing that i dropped the ball on, because of technical difficulties, and sleep sickness, due to medication cut-back…

…r*****d’s desire to help me to finish what i need to get done…

my spirit is strong. my mind is sharp. my heart is full.

namaste.

may 23, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…buggs. he is responsible for the smile on my face and the spring in my step. he is my confidant and constant companion. he gives me comfort and love. when he flashes his toothy grin, it makes me laugh…

…a decent night of sleep and waking up as myself, not an amnesiac…

…a long predawn walk with buggs, before it got super hot, and unbearable…

…a nice conversation with a friend, before going to therapy…

…a very rough, but valuable session with my 🕵…

…finding a great deal on chicken breasts at albertson’s…10 chicken breasts for $4.68…

…being able to drive the crv to therapy…

…a nice, long nap with buggs…

…photos and a video of my dogs, cash and carly, from s***h…

…a really delicious meal, prepared by w***y…

…j***y giving buggs a bath. now he smells fresher and feels better…

…the time that i had with my mom, throughout my lifetime and before she died…

…better health and more strength…

…all of my friends…

i am healthy. i am strong. i am worthy.

namaste.

thank you, s***h…

…for sending me photos and a video of the dogs that i miss and love. it made me homesick for washington state, cash and carly, lush green vegetation, clean air, and the beach. soon, i will be at home, in a home of my own…on the beach…everything that i love is in the pacific northwest. 

cash
carly