random…

…so, here’s the rest of what i’ve got photographywise for this sunday. i’m people watching again and here are some shots from starbucks and the omelette house. and, the odd two out of course is me…me and my bottlecap and my cup of coffee this morning.

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random things about today…

…i woke up at 0400 and looked around my room, but couldn’t find buggs anywhere. his bed was upside down on the floor and he wasn’t in it. i couldn’t understand, because he sleeps in his bed, down at the foot of my bed…with me. i was worried and confused. i thought that perhaps he had been “dognapped.” i called his name several times…no buggs!! the last time that i called him, rather frantically. i saw my pile of dirty clothes (headed for the laundry) move. i saw two little glowing eyes. buggs was sleeping and hiding under my dirty laundry and his bed was upside down on the floor. whatever happened, he’s keeping it a secret from me…

…when i got up at 0700 to start my day…i was angry for some strange reason. i think that after waking up to find buggs hiding and sleeping under my dirty laundry…i had a series of bad dreams involving buggs, a canister of rolled oats, my roommates, and my car’s key fob. i don’t remember any specifics…

…the sky was black and it actually rained for nine minutes. i timed it. it was nice. i miss it so fucking much…everything associated with it. it smelled so good for those nine minutes. it was a gift from the universe to me or at least i am choosing to think so…

…there were accidents both on my way to an ultrasound and coming from the ultrasound in rough the same stretch of freeway, on the opposite side. both accidents required traffic to crawl along at twenty miles per hour. both accidents involved white trucks…

…i spent most of my time today either in a doctor’s office, imaging center, lab, or my car. i didn’t have time to write the posts that i was going to write or to post anything. so instead, i used my time to reflect on some of my accomplishments from over the last year. a very, sage woman suggested that i do this and i felt gratitude for being able to accomplish so much, as a result of improved health and strength…which ironically enough was prompted and encouraged, by said woman. i needed to take that little “time out” today and truly feel blessed for whom and what i have in my life…

…i watched and took photos of a drunk woman as she hit a police officer several times, spit on him, and yelled horrible taunts at him. i don’t know if she was truly out of her mind or trying to bait him into using excessive force or what, but what i witnessed was a very patient, male officer. he went out of his way to call a female officer to get the lady into cuffs and pat her down. it made me happy to see something other than what i see and hear about on the news…

…i’m exhausted…physically, mentally, and emotionally, but tomorrow is a new day and tomorrow i am going to take some more of that sage advice. actually, not just tomorrow, but everyday. i will visualize what i want. i will say it out loud. and, i will write about it! so, i’m excited, because i for the most part know what i want and don’t want for myself. i guess that i will call accomplishing my goals, phase three. i will be working phases two and three concurrently and i will be writing about these wants and goals…

random photos…

…of this and/or that. i have fallen behind on everything after being sick from the remeron. each day as i am beginning to feel better, i try to do a little more. i will continue doing that, until everything is all caught up.

in the meantime, i present you with these…

“rolling in the deep”…

tongue-tied and twisted up…

as the plot keeps changing…

in a movie that is not my own…

as the writers constantly change…

update, and change my dialogue again…

they hand me my new script…

completely different from the old one…

the one that i knew by heart…

and had committed to memory…

i’m given a small amount of time…

to familiarize myself with the lines…

memorize my stage direction and marks…

and, at the end there are three highlighted lines…

“study and practice the new attributes of your character.”…

“natasha is now an exotic dancer…she dances nude, wearing only heels…speaks only russian.”…

“your call is at 0600…using dawn’s light to highlight natasha’s dance on top of a towncar, while singing “rolling in the deep,” in russian to a wealthy businessman, in mid-town manhattan.”…

query up…

…i sometimes see my brain as an enormous labyrinth library…dusty, cobwebby bookshelves line each corridor. when a particular kind of query comes to mind the animatronic librarian slowly comes to life he/she takes a plastic capsule from a vacuum tube (like old banks) opens it and reads the query. the answer can be located anywhere within the labyrinth…mind you, he/she is the only librarian…and things are cluttered and messy…he/she may get lucky or take months to find the answer. however, he/she never gives up. when an answer is found it is written on the back of the original query…put into the capsule…placed in the vacuum tube and away it goes…to the next stop realization and sharing. my god, that librarian has been scrambling around the labyrinth all night and found an answer matching a random question, which i thought might be of interest…the dinner party, season 4 – episode 13 of the office.

 

things i keep telling myself…

…tomorrow is a new day…

…no one knows what the future holds…

…remember, you’re a shitty mindreader…

…age is a state of mind…

…you still get carded…

…where there’s a will, there’s a way…

…patience is a virtue…

…good things come to those who wait…

…the juice was worth the squeeze…

…nothing ventured, nothing gained…

…you’re good enough, you’re smart enough and dog gone it…people like you…

…keep going…just a little further…

…love yourself and others will love you too…

…you’re a good catch…

…protect your heart…

…listen to your gut…

…open your eyes…

…be grateful for all that you have…

…be kind…

…give of yourself…

…listen, before you speak…

…you can have what you want and you will…

…keep working your plan, you will achieve your dreams and accomplish your goals…

…wake up…

…this is your life…

…take responsibility for yourself…

…continue to do the work…

…don’t burn bridges…

…don’t settle…

…be open to possibilities and magic…

…keep an open mind…