…that i’ve posted here…
(this is from a few days ago now)
i don’t want to to speak too soon and jinx anything or count my chickens before they’ve hatched.
i will say that today has been extraordinary. yes, it’s been a terrifying and thrilling rollercoaster ride.
i was pressed to the back of my seat, feet flat on the ground, and holding onto real objects to keep me grounded.
i’ve been thinking for days examining my thoughts, feelings, emotions, moods, intentions, body language, wants, needs.
today, i utilized my self-evident truths and chose to do things differently, but, not in a “george costanza,” kind of way.
two nights ago, i wrote my truths on index cards. i laid the cards out and arranged according to patterns i saw.
i took each pattern and made it into a paragraph. the paragraphs gave me a rough draft, a skeleton to flesh out.
it came easily, directly from the heart…a piece that clearly and accurately summed up everything, all of my truths.
it was accepted for publication on vocal.media last night, but i chose not to talk about it, until it had been read…
today, i was scared, but confident in my resolve to be okay, to hold it together, to continue to carry on, thrive, and grow…
regardless of the outcome of releasing these truths and realizations to their intended, their inspiration.
it was more of a proclamation than anything else. it was crystal clear, not vague, cluttered, or messy.
i had to blow-up the box from the inside and put it back together again, one piece at a time…
…without gaps, glue, or fasteners and re-craft it…seamlessly and masterfully into a work of art. and, i did!!