well, i’m glad that i’m not the only one…

…this was one of google’s recent gifts to me. it’s an article from entertainment weekly. apparentlythey have an ongoing feature entitled, “i’m still not over…” each month, a different contributor writes about a television show or moment, that they’ve never gotten over.

derek lawrence is this particular article’s author. derek’s pick, “i’m still not over jim and pam’s wedding on the office.” like i said, i’m glad that i’m not the only one.” for me, it was something that i rooted for, waited for, and got teary over. ha-ha…that’s the sweet, romantic, playful, goofy, magical goodness that i want for me.

anyway, this is what derek has to say:

“Jim. Pam. Wedding.

On the surface, not being over something has the connotation of being sad or negative. “I can’t believe they killed Wallace on The Wire!” “Why isn’t Happy Endings entering season 8?!” Honestly, I’m still not over either of those, no matter how famous Michael B. Jordan gets or how many reunions the cast of the ABC comedy has. But why does it have to be negative? Why can’t I still not be over something beautiful, funny, and emotional? And that’s exactly what Jim and Pam’s wedding was.

You can have your Ross and Rachels, Carrie and Bigs, and Cory and Topangas. Give me Dundler Mifflin’s sweet secretary and hopeless romantic salesman every day of the week. This is the TV couple that everyone can get behind. Whether it was Pam falling asleep on Jim’s shoulder in season 1, their brief drunken moment outside of Chili’s, or their first kiss, it was clear that these two were meant to be together — and not even Roy (David Denman), Karen (Rashida Jones), art school, or some lame boom operator could get in the way.

After shipping Jam through five-plus seasons of will-they-won’t-they drama, engagements, and an unplanned pregnancy, it all culminates in the hour-long episode “Niagara.” The couple’s hope that an out-of-town wedding will dissuade their co-workers from attending backfires, and the whole office makes their way to Niagara Falls for the big weekend, which consists of Jim pulling a Michael and revealing news of the Pam’s pregnancy, Dwight (Rainn Wilson) hooking up with a bridesmaid, and Jim demonstrating why he’s so damn lovable. “Four years ago, I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl who had a boyfriend,” he shares during his rehearsal dinner speech. “Even then, I knew that I was waiting for my wife.”

And if you thought that was emotional and made me you cry, then let’s get to the best part of the episode. Inspired by a viral clip from a Minnesota couple’s wedding, writers Mindy Kaling and Greg Daniels, director Paul Feig, and the cast deliver what might be the best and most delightful scene of the entire series. Last we had seen of Jim and Pam, they had scurried off from the chapel, leaving their friends, family, and co-workers wondering and waiting. Upon their return, the ceremony takes an unexpected — or, as we later find out from Jim, maybe expected turn. As Pam and her bridesmaids prepare to walk down the aisle, Dwight turns on Chris Brown’s “Forever,” and soon enough, the standard for TV weddings was forever changed.

The wedding party and all the members of the office proceed to dance their way down the aisle. Dwight kicks his new lover in the face; Kelly (Kaling) and Ryan (B.J. Novak) do the sprinkler; Creed (Creed Bratton) goes R-rated with a crotch grab. The surprise could have outraged Jim and Pam, but they aren’t fazed by it — and for good reason.

Intercut with the dance party is the charming revelation that the couple had stolen away for a boat ride on Niagara Falls, where they were married by the captain. A mere traditional wedding wouldn’t have fit these two or this series; the show found a way to exceed fans’ sky-high expectations and leave us all more than satisfied. (That’s what she said.)”

i know that jim and pam are fictional characters, but i still believe that there is magic left in this world. jim and pam’s courtship and relationship gave me hope that i-too can experience a connection like that one day. i guess that i will always hold out hope for someone who will play with me, engage my imagination, and offer me puffy unicorn stickers and handmade valentines.

 

may 31, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…new seasons of bloodline, house of cards, and orange is the new black, on netflix…

…a beautiful sunrise of fuchsias and violets…

…an early morning walk with buggs, although it was really humid and sticky…

…four cups of black coffee, in my favorite mug, which is just generic white, 1950’s diner style…

…five different types of tournament solitaire (klondike, spider, free cell, pyramid, and tri-peak) to keep my busy mind from wandering, too far…

…i’m grateful that my friend, g***e, made it home safely from, india…where she had hip surgery. i wish her a very, speedy recovery…

…all of my friends…

…r*****d taking us girls to the omelette house for breakfast…yummy eggs…

…the money to pay, r*****d, back what i owed him…

…the fact that i get paid tomorrow…

…a quiet evening without r*****d. he went out gambling…

i am strong and healthy. i am able and agile. i am open to possibility. 

namaste.

tonight’s meditation…

i have shared this meditation before, but it is one that is very beneficial to everyone. it is on overcoming obstacles in our lives.

we all have roadblocks, doors that slam shut, and things that just seem to appear out of left field.

sometimes, we need help to clear our minds, relax, and get focused…especially when we find ourselves facing an obstacle.

tonight’s meditation:

a meditation…

…for focus…to get and stay focused. this is a quick and easy meditation. you can use it anytime you feel scattered, unorganized, or stressed.

tonight’s meditation:

may 5, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…waking up before the birds and taking buggs for a nice long walk, before it got too hot outside…

…three cups of black coffee…

…time to finish the last cards, of the suit of hearts for my friend’s birthday gift, before having to go to the doctor…

…getting my gabapentin and baclofen refilled…

…a nice conversation with my friend…

…help from the nice lady from us bank, who is getting my $120 back from compatible partners/e-harmony…

…the delicious hamburger patty that w***y made for dinner…

…air conditioning and a fan to be able to beat the heat…

…strength, health, freedom, and independence…

i am healthy. i am vital. i am worthy of love.

namaste.

oprah/deepak 21-day meditation experience, days 20, 21, & 22…

dear friends,

i can’t believe how many of you participated with me in this experience throughout the world. i was contacted by many new friends from some surprising countries, all sharing the same mind. all of us seeking “hope in uncertain times.”

i want you all to know, that i never deserted you. the first absence: i took some time to explore the opportunities that my renewed hope brought to me. the opportunities filled me with happiness and joy, like i hadn’t had in years. 

the second: i’ve been taking some time to meditate, feed my soul, and fuel my hope through art. i’ve been going through my experiences of “home” and thinking about what each have taught me. i’m focusing my hope. i’m open to possibilities. i’m hopeful.

today is the last day of our 21-day meditation experience, but our hope goes on. we’ve learned that our hope is our strength…to stop, listen, and ask, “what is this experience telling me?” and, that hope is always there, in every moment. 

also, just in case you were wondering, i realized that we were given a bonus of day 22. i will continue to post meditations, if anyone wants to continue along with me on this journey. 

all the best…namaste.

day 20, day 21, and day 22 meditations are below…

the focus of day 20: hope offers forgiveness. 

the centering thought: everyday i move toward forgiveness. 

the sanskrit mantra: om sarvatva namah. 

the translation: the wholeness of the universe is my true nature.

the message of the day: “hope is like the sun, which, as we journey toward it, casts the shadow of our burden behind us.” samuel smiles 

your day 20 meditation can be found here 

the focus of day 21: the secret of enlightenment. 

the centering thought: in every moment of hope, i free myself.

the sanskrit mantra: sat chit ananda. 

the translation: life is absolute bliss consciousness. 

the message of the day: “knowing others is wisdom, knowing yourself is enlightenment.” – lao tzu 

your day 21 meditation can be found here 

the focus of day 22: hope holds the future of the world.

the centering thought: i live in the world of my vision.

the sanskrit mantra: aham brahmasmi.

the translation: i am the wholeness of universal existence. 

the message of the day: hope is not dead, it is just larger than our imaginations: it’s purpose extending far beyond our comprehension.” – kathy hobaugh 

your day 22 meditation can be found here 

thank you all for sharing this experience with me!!