empty, hollow, dark, hard…
…words that describe my heart.
whispers of empty promises…
…echo through every part.
my eyes have seen and my ears have heard…
i’ve believed you and hung on your every word…
maybe i’m lonely…perhaps i can’t trust…
i’m better without you…love is unjust…
hey…it’s been awhile.
i’m back…did you miss me?
nevermind…you don’t need to respond.
i think…i already know your answer.
i don’t want to make this…awkward.
it’s been hard enough…knowing.
living with what transpired…or did not.
but, enough time has passed…ticked off.
maybe, no one remembers…
maybe, it’s just me…
maybe, it doesn’t matter…
maybe, it never did…
but, here i am again…resurrected.
no longer running…a chicken without her head.
staring you down…eye to eye.
not nervous, not flinching…just strongly stoic.
my mind no longer segues right to you.
it no longer sees your face.
it no longer hears your voice.
i am older, wiser and finally free.
buggs and i picked up a giant german shepherd named, lucious…in norman, oklahoma and transported him to lincoln, nebraska.
it was a fun trip. i was delivering lucious to a former professional football player (for the san diego chargers). who is now a coaching assistant for the nebraska cornhuskers.
it was rather exciting to drive right up to memorial stadium…home of giant college games that i have seen on tv so many times over the years. it was beautiful and grand.
lucious’s owner was such a nice guy!! he gave me a big hug when we met and when i left. the reunion between him and lucious was a magical moment. he may have shed a tear or two.
buggs and i spent the night in belleville, kansas. we stayed in a hotel run by the nicest family. our room was nice and the bed fantastic. i had the best night of sleep that i’ve had in years there.
we arrived back from our quick trip yesterday afternoon. we were greeted by very hot and humid weather. the temperature was 94°. we went inside and cranked on the a/c.