there’s something important…

…that i need and want to do. it’s something that i’m struggling with. lately, i’m just not good with words…

…i’m not exactly sure why. i’m strong and i’m healthy. i’m getting plenty of exercise and i’m sleeping better than i had been…

…i’ll say that my therapist is partially responsible for this problem, as i let her read something that i had written…

…she told me that it sounded really weird and disjointed and strange. and, it psyched me out…

…i’m afraid that if that was truly that awful, the next thing might be just as awful or worse…

…i guess that might be why i’ve shied away from posting lately. i wrote a post earlier about how i feel…like i’m seven again…

…but, i’m working on being more concise. i’m hoping that my words and vocabulary will come back. i’ve got work to do…

hairs cut…

…each and every one of them. i was beginning to look all wild and wooly, or so the girls told me…but, i failed to get a woman’s opinion on the matter…that’s neither here nor there, but today i went back to being addressed by, “sir”…which i actually hadn’t heard in a few months and kind of liked…but, i figure with this heat it’ll be grown out to be wild and wooly proportions again…in about three weeks…

so now, i think that i look like a cop…behold good cop and bad cop…

finally following through…

…on a suggestion from my friend, d***y. she has been my friend and main encouragement when it comes to writing. a year or two ago, she invited me to join her writers group. i did and i have really benefited from being a part. i have received countless suggestions and lots of help. i am greatly appreciative. 

anyway, d***y suggested that i utilize my photos to make and self-publish a coffeetable photo book. i finally decided to do it and i am almost done. i am going to start with one and see how well that does. if it does well, i will start utilizing all of my photos for photobooks. that would make me really happy, to be able to use them.

my first photobook is utilizing las vegas street art: tags, graffiti, murals, posters, banners, and stickers. below are a few sneak peeks.

online traffic class…

…first of all, i was absolutely guilty of speeding. the officer caught me driving 98 miles per hour, but as i told the girls…who were my passengers at the time and wanted to get to mount charleston quickly…”well, at least i haven’t had a ticket in twenty-two years and he didn’t catch me when i was going 123 miles per hour.”

r****d’s crv doesn’t ever feel like it’s going as fast as it really is. in fact, i was genuinely shocked, when i looked at the gauge and saw 123 miles per hour and that’s when i began to slow down, as i had passengers in the car. the officer caught me upon that deceleration. i was grateful that i had caught going 98 miles per hour. 

the court date for my citation was printed on the bottom of my ticket. on the second of march, i appeared before the judge and pled guilty to driving 28 miles an hour over the speed limit. i was given the choice of paying $318…$218 for fine plus $100 for skipping traffic class and having all three demerit points removed. 

there were two other choices. i could pay $268…$218 for fine plus $50 for sitting through five hours of traffic class and passing a final examination and having all three demerit points removed. the last choice was to pay $218 for fine and disregard traffic class and have the three demerit points applied to license.

of course, i didn’t want the demerit points or to pay more than necessary…so, i chose the second option of paying my fine and sitting through five hours of traffic class, which was proctored online via the nevada dmv. there were a total of seven chapters and if you chose the id verify option, they send your certificate directly to the court.

i chose the id verify option. i had to complete the class before midnight on june 2. they timed you and if you got through the chapter too fast…they would make you wait, before allowing you to move on. each chapter ended with a quiz that i always passed. before allowing you to take the final, you had to evaluate the site.

the instructions for the final said that there were thirty-five random questions and that you needed a 70% in order to pass the class. if you didn’t pass the first time, you could take it again in four hours, which i couldn’t do. it was 8:20 pm and four hours would’ve put me at twenty minutes past midnight. i crossed my fingers.

i dove right in. there were thirty-five random questions, but of those 35, there were 18 that were already answered, already chosen. i checked them to see whether they were answered correctly or not. of those 18, one 1 was incorrect, and i changed it. of the remaining 17 questions, i got them all right and scored 100%.

nothing like waiting until the last minute…

…to pay for your speeding ticket and take the stupid online traffic course. i had to wait until i’d saved the money. and then, take and pass the course before midnight on june 2. well, i did that…just barely!! 

i was interrupted all day by r*****d who thought that he was being funny…until i finally came unhinged and threatened to go to my bedroom…that bought me a half an hour of silence. and then, he’d start again and i’d come unhinged again…we did this over and over again all damn day.

the good news is that i’m back to having 0 demerit points on my driving record. it’s not the cure for this lead foot though!! i’m just glad that it’s done and over with. tomorrow, i can post all that i wanted to post today. i’m just to weary to try to right now, tonight.

numb and dumb…

i’ve got a lot to say, but every thought escapes me right now. so, instead of me just rambling and saying absolutely nothing of importance like usual, i’m just going to share two things that one of my friends recently shared with me. 

and, there you have it…

me – a cowardly pussy, pretending to be a tiger (not how my friend meant it, but how i feel)