may 1, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…the last 21 days of hope filled meditations. they have relaxed me, occasionally sent me off to sweet sleep, and filled me with hope. these are very uncertain times for me and i’ve found myself really trying to put what i’ve learned into action. if nothing else, i’ve learned to stop when things aren’t going my way, and ask myself, “what is this trying to teach me? what can i learn from this?” i’m doing my best to be happy with what is…and, try to be and stay present for each comfortable, or uncomfortable moment…

…a wonderful project to be working on, it’s not pretty to look at, but it’s allowed me to be creative and thoughtful. it’s reminded me of the best things about home and made me grateful for all that i’ve seen and experienced there…

…buggs. that boy of mine brings me so much joy and happiness, that i often times wonder how i ever made it for the nearly two years before i adopted him. he knows when i’m having a down day and gives me extra silly antics, toothy grins, and kisses…

…the wonderful lunch and dinner prepared by wendy…

…the conversation that i had with my friend j**s. it was a much needed distraction and nice to talk to someone who understood what i was talking about emotionally, and vice versa. although, it reminded me of how much i miss my nightly 7-9 hour phone calls with m****a, who understood me intellectually and enjoyed conversation just as much as i did…

…lots of short, fast walks with buggs, in between working on the “diamond suit,” and talking to my friend…

…row, row, rowing until i’m too exhausted to think about things and have anxiety…

i am healthy. i am strong. i am worthy of love.

namaste.

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