february 23, 2017…

today, i am grateful for…

…getting to sleep in this morning. i really needed it. i don’t know if i’m getting a cold, a virus, or the flu, but my body feels like somebody pummeled me in middle of the night, with a pillowcase full of oranges…

…headphones to listen to, “the office” or music every night, because the roaring in my bad ear has amplified exponentially and i can’t sleep, because it’s all that i hear…

…a nice, hot shower to ease my aches and pains…

…clean laundry and a clean bed…

…richard and jenny watching buggs, while i went to therapy and my other appointment…

…a really hard, but really good, therapy session. my 🕵 was really excited to see my stem homework. we brought up a lot of anger, anxiety, sadness, and feelings of loss today, as we discussed my dad…and my mom…and her last eighteen months, where she waited on him hand and foot…and he took her no where and spent no money on her. and now, with his new girlfriend, they’ve vacationed repeatedly since a few months after my mom died…she posts things all over facebook about where they’re going, what they’ve done, and how much money my dad spends on her. it kills me, it fucking kills me. but, i’m grateful for the homework that my therapist has given me to try to work through it…

…many options for volunteering at the lgbtq center and very nice people who work there…

…driving through the arts district today and having so many things to photograph. there seems to be something interesting to see, wherever i look…

…my rebif  (ms medication)…

…jalapeños and cheddar cheese…and, rubber gloves…

i am healing myself. i am growing. i can get what i want. 

namaste.

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